Falling apart at the seams

I thought knowing in advance would make the grief less difficult but I was so wrong.
My uncle passed yesterday morning in his sleep. I feel sad, of course. I feel anger and resentment. But, I also feel relieved, for him. The pain is now gone. So is he.
Life is crazy some days. I went to be with my family for support. So many memories rushed back. So many friends I haven't seen and lost contact with. So many people we went to school with, my cousins and I, just passing by, seeing the family out, stopped by. It was strange how it happened. It was lovely to catch up. It was somber to see them at "this" time but it was also good to have the support.
Thanks to my friends who have been holding me together. I love you more than you know!

May he be at peace, soaring with the moon and stars.
Love you always, Uncle Ed!

Ah, Beauty does exist

Tyler Perry Treats Philly Kids To Disney World

Philadelphia Kids Shunned By Swim Club Get Trip To Disney World Thanks To Actor Tyler Perry

(AP) Tyler Perry is paying for 65 children from a Philadelphia day camp to go to Walt Disney World after reading about allegations that a suburban swim club had shunned them because of racism.

The black and Hispanic children who attend the day camp run by Creative Steps Inc. cheered Monday when they learned about the actor's gift.

Creative Steps director Alethea Wright says she's thrilled about the offer, especially because Perry "comes from humble beginnings" like the children in her camp.

The Valley Club in Huntingdon Valley has maintained that refunding the camp's swimming fee was not about race but rather a safety issue, in part because many children couldn't swim.

Perry is best known for his signature character Madea, a big-hearted but foul-tempered grandmother.

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Information from: WPVI-TV, http://abclocal.go.com/wpvi

This, to me, was a beautiful gesture on behalf of Mr. Perry. It was very sad when those campers were turned away from a pool they paid to use for the summer because members of this particular swim club decided they would not allow their children to swim with these predominately minority campers. Truth be told, I was not in the least bit shocked, as these things seem rather normal to me due to being a witness to these behaviors in my own youth.
I felt sorry for the children though. In this time, they were thinking, as many would like, that this type of treatment was all behind us, a thing of the past.
Some things truly haven't changed. They've just become more discreet.
At least these children are enjoying a wonderful camp experience and this trip will definitely enhance it.
Philly thanks Tyler Perry for his kindness and compassion toward these 65 campers. Some people in this world truly are beautiful.

What's Up?

What have I been up to? Well, for all intentions and purposes, I got all dolled up for a night on the town with the man (DH), made our way to a nice club to hang out around 9 pm and nothing at all was going on. LOL. We thought we'd wait around an hour but still...nothing. So we headed back to get our little ladies. Truth be told, I was exhausted from lack of sleep the night before so it was fine with me.
It seems like we had so many free and outdoor activities planned for this week and all I see is rain! Ugh!
On another note, my uncle is home from the hospital. He is heavily medicated but very aware of who is coming and going. My family and I have been by to see him for the past two days.
I surprised my grandmom with some KFC cuz she loves their chicken like MJ did. I thought she deserved a smile. She does so much for everyone and now she has to take care of her son. It's gotta be crazy for a parent to see her child in this state and know she may outlive him. I think that's a parent's nightmare.
A beautiful thing I thought to share with my grandmom's neighbors was how much I appreciated growing up there, on that block. Unlike where we live now, I always felt as if everyone on the block was family. Everyone knew us and looked out for us. If I ever came home and for some strange reason no one was there, I could always go to a neighbor's house. We were all like a close-knit family. Whatever happened to those days? I really do miss that.

Oh, What a SUNDAE

Sundae Philly was amazing tonight. Lady Alma and Mark de Clive-Lowe were mashing it up for the crowd. The atmosphere was laid back. The people were eclectic. The performance was spectacular. The best part is the new location. Sundae was always a family friendly event but now at the Piazza, there are lots of shops and vendors so you can never get bored.
There were also hula hoopers, fire hoopers and a flame blower. B-Boys and B-girls come out every Sundae to rock out.
To learn more about Sundae events visit: http://sundaephiladelphia.com/
Oh, did I mention, it's free? Awesome!!!

I can't imagine my life w/o him

I guess I'll share this here as well.

I can't imagine my life w/o him
Current mood: disappointed

Some days I feel as if the world is crashing in on me. I have to wonder whose karma I inherited. Then, I realize, not everything is my fault.

I thought the world revolved around him. As a chilld, I followed him everywhere, good and bad. I knew all the best "weed" spots and the best places to sell candy for school fundraisers. He took me everywhere.

Now, I just don't know. I feel so helpless, as if all hope is lost.

It seems that he has been ill for quite some time. I learned of it a year ago but even then, I had no idea it was so serious.

Today, I called to to share with her the story of the fat cat trying to escape through the window. I was laughing, she was crying. She told me if he leaves the hospital this time, he has 3-4 months to live.

He was in the hospital since June 19th. He left because they were not treating him well. Switches to the place of his preference and here we are, mouring before he is even gone.

I had to think to myself, as much as this is a curse, it is also a blessing. Unlike MJ, we have the chance and opportunity to make the best of his last days here on earth with us.

It hurts like hell but it really makes me realize just how precious life is.
What good is life if all you do is live?
It's time to make some changes and celebrate life and all that we have, before it's gone.

Since I posted this days ago on myspace he has been read his last rites and is being sent home tomorrow to die. We will make him as comfortable as possible and help him enjoy his "last days".

Who am I?

I am called Poison but most know me as Ty.
I guess I'll begin by calling myself a wife and mother of three. I homeschool. I live. I love.
I have many interests, too many to list but I love hip hop, underground is my preference, old school dancehall, manga and anime, and so many other things.
I consider myself eclectic.
I am a pretty random person and I think my blog will be as well.
I guess we will see...